M Y T H I N L A N D
“Anorexia doesn’t mean that you don’t eat. We all would be dead by now.
Anorexia means that every time you eat, you suddenly feel fatter.
Anorexia means that every time you eat, you feel a voice in your head that says “you should’t have eaten that”.
Anorexia means that every time you see someone skinny you feel like dying.
Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself every hour just to see the numbers going down down down.
Anorexia means wanting to weigh yourself but being afraid to because you know you shouldn’t have eaten that piece of cake yesterday.
THIS IS ANOREXIA. So please, if you don’t know anything about it, don’t come to me with your bullshit, because I don’t wanna hear any of that. “
- sum random ana blogger
Happiness Will Come To You.
when tho
When You Least Expect It. Probably Late March
reblog for happiness to come for you in late march!
I’m sorry you’re here, I’m sorry you had to read this, I’m sorry you’re doing this to yourself, I’m sorry that girl called you fat in year 6, or your dad told you you needed to lose weight when you were 10, I’m sorry you felt their stares like knifes in your back, or you cried in the toilets alone at lunch, I’m sorry you had to deal with that shit you haven’t told anyone about, or you’re still affected by the trauma no one else understands, I’m sorry you feel lonely, or empty inside, Im sorry you stay awake all night, or spend the day waiting for it to end, I’m sorry your life didn’t turn out as planned, or you feel it’s not worth living anymore. If there’s one thing my abuser did, it was make me say sorry for shit I didn’t do, I know I didn’t do any of these things to you, but I’m just so fucking sorry.
*gains weight*
Wants to die
*Maintains weight*
Still wants to die
*Loses weight*
Wants to die slightly less
I see all these posts about people feeling fake saying they have an ed for eating a sandwich. This is the shoutout post for people who starve all day and binge all night. The people who are stuck on a certain weight because they binge almost daily. The people who can’t control themselves and hate it more than anything. The people who feel like their ed is fake all day and every day.
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